This is the live

My latop scared me to death on Thrusday and then on Friday again. It booted, up until the point where it showed the Windows sign, pinged and switched over tot he desktop.. only that it didn't switch but stayed black. There was a mouse pointer, I could move it and all but nothing else showed. Have to restart and do a system recovery. No idea what it was and if it will happen again. Safe mode worked the first time and I could save data and all, just no internet for me.. the second time it only worked for the datas before the recovery. I lost some stories. Anyway, works now and is even faster, I am still suspicious though.

Other things:
-> I am blocked. Like completely blocked. Probably because I lost the rewritten last part of the Dark Angel fic. Haven't written a word since then, not even edited stuff, which I am supposed to do so that I can finally post someone's late birthday present.

-> Did post fic though for the "Wherein verse": "Wherein Jared tries not to be too miserable (and to avoid being kidnapped by Mike... or not)", J2, PG-13

-> switched my Big Bang idea out for another one and I can finally take notes and start planning. I am glad I did it and I think chani_atreides will like this very much (not so mcuh the fact that she'll have to wait even longer now).

-> Bought a new bed and a new bookshelf (because it was on sale), threw out my old bookshelf and the old bed. I can sleep again, at least for a bit and I am rested now...a bit. So it really was the bed? Am still a little doubtful. Kitty loves the new bed already, it's way lower than my old one and she can just climb on without having to jump.
Spent three days sorting through books, DVDs and other things. I threw away about three sacks full of stuff.

-> to add to my massive amount of books (I had no idea I had *that many*) I ordered five more, so yeah I think my days will be filled with reading and hopefully writing again.

-> Allergies are worse than ever.... I don't know what to do, my eyes are burning and my nose is constantly swollen. I hate it. I feel like shit.

-> When I wasn't building my bed and bookshelf I was going three a "The OC" marathon. Found season 2 to 4 for 10 each, so no 15€ at amazon. Yay me. Too much money anyway but I needed it.

-> Podfics are awesome, especially podfics of fics from yoru fav authors and your fav reader. *nods* It starting to become my late night ritual before bed.

-> Mum should be back tomorrow and I still have some things to do around here. Nothing goes over spending Easter alone and cleaning and watching "The OC". Is it me or does that sound rather pathetic?
Well not really all alon, had my cat and grandparents + visitor came by today, brought lunch and cake and 20€ (I so know what that will be... Summer dress here I come). It was a nice surprise.

-> The boys... oh the boys made me smile this weekend. I am so glad that this con went so well. Just the pictures alone... and yeah... Boys.
Thank you Jensen war making me smile. Thank you Jared for making me snort out loud. Thank you Jim Beaver for being just... you... :=)

I forgot where I got it from but ( Jensen *sighs* and Jared :D )

Why do people feel the urge to leave trains that they are not supposed to leave? Second time in to days that this happened and every time I was caught in the middle of it.
Took me an hour yesterday to cover two stations that would normally take me five minutes. Great. Just because people had to be rescued off the tracks. Argh. Thanks for leaving haf the city to deal with the chaos-
Thank god it were just 10 minutes today.

At least most of the day yesterday was good. Busy day but I had fun and I actually got things done, which seesm to be rare these days.
Sorry, chani_atreides, that I couldn't make it. I do feel bad about it.
When I cam home I was so tired that I fell into bed at 8.30pm and was dead to the world. I think my body really needed it.

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Why do my teeth hurt again? I didn't do anything. They are not supposed to grow again and make everything feeling weird.
And the headache can go and piss off as well. I don't need any of them around.

Also why do the Stars always lose when I watch a game? Maybe I should stop watching and hoping I am not a jinx or something.

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Leverage today.
I missed the show.

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So it's time for spn_j2_bigbang again. Or at least for thinking about plots and ideas and so on.
I signed up and I think I might have some ideas already, one I will totally blame on purequicksilver.

Anyway, so who wants to be in the filter? I never changed it from the first time, so some of you are already in it but I am not really sure who else wants to be in it.

[Poll #1511108]

I think I shouldn't have taken the nap after I got home from work. I feel all dizzy and not all that good, slightly stuffy, too. Bah... well, it's not like I am sleeping at night.
I am cold even though the temperatures are rather okay. I wanted to write some today but I think I'll postpone that until after the race tomorrow (which I am not even sure I want to watch).

I sort of hate how my layout looks only really cool in Firefox. But since I am only using FF I am okay with that.
Opera works better then IE here, too.

Hehe, Gabe at VanCon is telling the Jensen-crush story again. I loved it at Asylum already.
I also love that Aldis is such a dork and that Alona looks really good.

Seems like I have a university degree now.
Well, my average is okay, could have been better though. I think I have to thank blue_ant for saving my thesis for me and thus my average.
Not sure what I'll do with it now. I am clueless as how to go on, but I'll have to figure it out soon.

... the pain behind my eyes. I am so tired that I feel sick.
I am just glad I didn't shatter any of the planting pots I had gto sort through at work today.

I wanted to take a nap when I got home but couldn't because I had to wait for a delivery.
New modem is here now, let's hope it will hold longer than two weeks like the last one. I don't need to see smoking things again.
Talking about internet and computers, I am also staring at the iMac one of the discounters is now offering in their online shop. So tempted, it looks all pretty there.

I think I am going to read a little and then go to bed. So not up to going through my flist or anything.

The only thing I have been doing besides work and editing is watching swimming. The thing is that I still don't really can't watch Aaron without getting excited but I feel all sorts of detached from it as well.
I cheered fro RyRy and Eric though, hehe taking down Phelps' WRs must be fun.

hd_obsession, I got your card today! Thank you so much... :)

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I hate my internet right now.
It stops working at the most inconvenient times these days, mostly when I am trying to get things done.

Anyway, since I commented on hd_obsession's post.
A drabble meme.

Drabble it forward: Make a post inviting people to request drabbles in the fandoms you write; any number of commenters you can handle. But the catch is, once someone makes a request, they also have to post the meme, and drabble it forward.

Well, let's see if anyone even wants to... First 10 (or so).
The last call kind of went unanswered, not that I don't have anything to do... but drabbles I think I can manage.

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My sleeping schedule is all messed up again. I am dead tired all day but I never really manage to go to bed before 3am (of course I am already in bed but I never seem to be able to fall asleep).
So I don't really sleep at night or in the morning I watch news channels and morning shows, which sometimes might not be such a good idea. The things you think about when you can't sleep aren't always that pleasant, especially while watching the news these days.
Anyway, this morning I just watched a little of one of the morning shows and they had international news on.. and those news made me cry. It shows in what kind of an emotional state I am in when I am not sleeping.
Anway, it's this story about the Chilenian dog saving his injured mate from a busy highway that made me tear up.
Animals are so much more human than humans.

I have done something today which I haven't in ages.
I slept through the day. Which means I am wide awake now and dizzy as hell. But seems like I needed the sleep.

And that means that I didn't do anything today. I didn't start the papers I really, really need to finish. I didn't write mails I wanted to write (and I need the internship evaluation). I did nothing for the Christmas presents I wanted to finish and I did not write cards, like I planed.
So there isn't much I actually did today besides sleeping. Watched "Prince Valiant", ordered DVDs, and kept on staring at Jack and Ianto on my desktop. So yes, that's it.

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Now I am trying to find a new computer. And man, I never thought it woukd be that hard. But considering the money limit and that my mum wants to have a new screen as well, it's no wonder I am about to scream at all the websites I have open. Urgh.. But I need a new one, this one is 6 years old and well actually quite okay but sorta packed. And the lack of a DVD burner is a very large minus, not to mention the quirks it seems to develop.
Oh well, I have some time left and at least my brother is helping with the money thing. There still is a limit I just can't ignore.

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I should get another wallpaper. Oh hell no way...
I want more Torchwood.

Gigi Elizabeth Hall.
I am not sure if I should feel sorry for the little girl or not.

I think I haven't slept that long in years. 18 hours? Huh?
Still, ouch my throat.

Back to watching the Olympics.

Edit: So Katharina has another virus which she caught in hospital. What the fuck are they doing to her there? Okay, it is not that bad yet but she has fever again.