.. just not really online due to several reasons.
My new modem smoked and I am using my old one since Thursday and it doesn't really connect. It's so very slow and annoying, or it doesn't connect at all.
So I haven't been online much, online to send off some mails but nothing more.
Have been too busy with the thesis and the crap that is my Words program during the week anyway.
I am sorry that I have been absent but it's not really my fault.

I wish I could get out of here for a while but I don't really have the time to think about anything but my thesis and how I am supposed to be done with it but can't because I suck.
I feel sort of cut off from everything which shows how dependent I on my internet. No idea when I'll be back again, might take a while since my provider is sort of unable to get a new modem until Wednesday and I am still busy trying to fix the mess that is my thesis, so don't expect much from me. You can of course poke me or send mails or whatever.

First day of the swimming World Champs sort of made up a little for the mess that is my life right now.
Still have a huge crush on Nathan and seeing Ous being awesome and chatty with Paul and Vanderkaay helped to lift my mood as well.

And even though Kimi was driving sort of good this race I am not really in the mood to cheer for anything F1 related.
I think our commentators squashed the last bit of enjoyment that I had these days. Still love Kimi though, especially with the hair right now.

Have to work early tomorrow, but then have to go into the city afterwards. Oh this will be fun... not.
At least not when it should get as hot as they say it will and when it will take ages to get home again. Fucking non-working public transport.

I just sat on my windowsill and watched rather cool fireworks.
The local football club officially re-opened their new stadium today. They had to built new sections to accomodate the rules of the higher league they managed to enter this year.
Therefore a friendly was held between the club and Hertha BSC (the first league club of the city). I didn't even need to watch the game on TV, I could hear everything that was going on just fine.
Yes the stadium is that close. Anyway awesome fireworks and I didn't even need to leave my room.

Was shopping after work today and it's sort of cool to have some money when sales are going on.
I scored two pairs of earings as well as a sweater, the later for only 2.50.
Oh and I got my Dakine accessory bag for the backback I bought some weeks ago.
This sort of let my love for Dakine grew even more. Not only were they supper fast with delivering it they also put some small but cute suprises in it, like sheets of stickers with all the current Dakine logos and a chip for the mall trolleys.

Nothing else to tell.
My organisational skills concerning my thesis still seem to be hide somewhere. Can't find them anymore.
I am so massively stuck that I am this close to panicking. Not yet though, am still trying to get it done.
I am also reading books that have nothing to do with my thesis, which sort of helps trying to calm down again.
The thing is that I want to write either a Sam/Dean or a J2 version of one of the books. So not good. I can't use more distractions.

Also, US Nationals are going on and I sort of don't care. No, that isn't right I do care I just don't stay awake the whole night watching races on Live Timing.
Speaking of Nationals, wtf RyRy, did your hair explode?

I think my brain melted. I went through a greater part of my notes today and managed to write another ten pages. The thing is that it sounds like grap.
I just don't know how to say things anymore without using the same 20 words over and over again. My vocabulary is broken. Not cool.

Anyway, got a call from work telling my that I have to work tomorrow as well and there I was looking forward to my day off.
I need the time to get things done. But the again it's the early early-shift, which means I'll be home by the time I usually would have gotten up to start working on the thesis.
I just hope I won't be too tired.
But at least I am in a writing flow and I am not as distracted by other things as I thought I'd be.

Speaking of distraction, my flist is so full of glee for Torchwood and I get it.
I really do. Thank God I won't have to wait another week for the next part.
I think my love for the show is partly restored again. And there were scenes I simply loved.

Since I have to get up real early and my brains has decided to not work in *poor whites in Southern literature* anymore I'll go and read some fic and then bed.
I feel so old going to bed before 11pm.

Oh and hate me all you want but I am so tired of this whole Michael Jackson hoopla going on.

So instead of doing really useful things today I dyed my hair and painted my nails. I am such a girl today. I even watched some Julia Roberts movies.
Holiday TV program kinda sucks, as usual. Maybe I should go back to writing Big Bang.

I wanted to do a huge Big Bang post about how to go on and if I should keep the scenes that I have but I decided against it. I decided to just sit down and write what I have in my head and then let my betas tell me if it works or not.
It was what worked for me during the last challenges and I guess I put way to much pondering into my last Big Bang. I just don't really have the time nor the nerve or energy to do it that way again. I have an idea and I will write and will see where it goes.
There will probably be more Big Bang posts but they'll most likely consists of whining and complaining.
Oh and I decided against posting a counter, because looking back on how things have gone so far I'll probably delete half of what I have written again and do it completely differently. So a counter wouldn't be much of use.

Just this, I am thinking about making Jared not only a geek but an insomniac as well, since I know what I am talking about.
Suggestions about what he does when he doesn't sleep??

Thesis is going.. slow. But still going and I haven't given in to the temptation of stopping with the books again and take a break.
So yeah, I have been busy. And I actually managed to go to bed early and get a decent amount of sleep. Sorry if I haven't been around much, it will likely go on like that for a while now.

I have no idea if I will be online at all during the next three days. My mum actually decided to hold up family Easter tradition and join my cousin and my aunt at the garden. The weather is awesome for that, so I will be there. Out in the sun with a bunch of teenagers, a nine-year-old and my aunt, which I haven't seen in a year (since the blow up last year at the same time). Joy.

In other news, I am going back to a semi-regular swimming work out. I want to look halfway decent in May.
I will okay with it even if my whole condition is for shit and I can't go longer than an hour. But that is better as nothing.
And as long as I don't have a job (which I guess will never happen) I can work out.

I am dead. Like really, really fucking dead. And screwed on top of it.
But the paper is done. Not that it makes me feel better since it is total crap. I am mentally prepapring myself for another round with it, namely re-writing it.
I so hate it to have to write when I am blocked. And I have been blocked for months now, especially concerning this paper. Which basically means that I'll have to hand it in partially unbetaed. This can only suck. And does. Like a lot. Yes, I know it is my own fault, so shut up.
I just hope the prof will still accept it. He said he would but you never know..
*headdesk*

Anyway, working on the paper meant that I didn't sleep last night.
Not a single minute and I have been sick since Tuesday as well. Fucking heat and sweating too much and getting cold because of it. Nose stuffe, throat is burning and I have a headache from hell. Yay.
Argh.. I will sooooooo sleep the whole day tomorrow after sending of the paper.

Anyway since I feel sorry for myself and since I am allowed to be totally fangirlish, I am doing this now:

Happy Birthday Jared!

Not at all.
I seriously spent the day either trying to reinstall Works or helping my brother fixing the dishwasher. *headdesk*
And since Works decided to eat half my files along the way I needed to start one paper from the beginning, which took me almost the whole day and I am not finished yet. So much for saving stuff on my email account, would have worked if I hadn't forgotten this paper. That again means I didn't finish the stuff I wnated to finish today, which leaves me one day less to work on the really big paper I still have open. *more headdesk* I am going insane. I hate Works right now. With all my heart.
I can't concentrate anymore. My eyes are burning. Like mad.
But I so need to get this all finished either tonight or tomorrow.
I think I should say Good-bye to sleep at all for the time being.
*is sick*

And thunderstorms are not helping.. because shutting down the PC and turning it on again every hour is frustrating... to say the least.

Maybe I should stop for now and indulge in some Gilmore Girls rerun and go back to work after Jerricho.

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Aaron cheers me up though. The times he posted from the Texas Senior Circuit are pretty impressive. I think he is still a little pissed a RyRy.. ;)
Don't know if he'll be in Santa Clara though, would be cool to see him there again. No Psyche sheets are up yet.

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I actually managed it. One of three finished.
In other news, I'll be away this weekend (from Friday to Tuesday). I don't know if I'll have internet. Grandparents and me are going up to the Sea, surprise for my mum.
So since I got the paper done and am almost finished with the other smaller one, I guess I can take some days off (I will of course take uni stuff with me).
But the best thing is, that it is so typical for me: the weekend I am not home Klete swims at the Speedo Grand Challenge in Irvine.
First meet he swims as a Trojan again and I'll probably miss it. Meh, I want to see how he is doing with Dave as a coach.
Shows how much my timing sucks.

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Even though it's a sucky date I'll have to mark Sep. 11th in my calendar.
It's the supposed release date for the SPN Season 2 DVD box (so I might have it at my birthday, like I did last year with the season one box).
Anyway GAG REEL! and commentary. I am bouncing, yes.

Am desperately trying not to think about the Kane gig, that's why I am watching/watched Veronica Mars and Champs League at the same time.
Man, that was a weird mixture.. Uhu...

First: Happy Birthday tripthemighty! Have a great day! :)

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So I haven't really been online in a while and I guess I missed a lot of stuff going on (LJ.wise). This stupid literature paper got me and I didn't care much about anything but getting that finished. It's over and I am done (hopefully in a good way) with it. Am slowly getting back being online and checking my flist. So if I missed anything important, just tell me...

Today, I caught up on the missed sleep. The hours kinda pilled up during the last three or four weeks. I think I lsept away the whole day. And I feel all dizzy but better than I have in days.

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slippery_fish and me were at Nadine's place yesterday. We watched "Heroes" and I think after "Dexter" this is the thrid show this season I really like. Four episodes so far, not really enough to judge the characters. But I really like it this far. And hey Adrian Pasdar :)

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And as usual the Supernatural babling of the week... Oh Dean. ( I love the way Jensen did it (acting-wise) ) and I love Jared's way of using his voice

Should have checked my printer earlier. Okay, so buying new ink tomorrow, handing in paper in Wednesday, bed now.
*headdesk*

I am procastinating. Instead of going through my paper I am watching the latest WaT and Supernatural (Wheeeee... *coughs*) eps, read or change my LJ layout. I have changed it quite a lot during the last month, but I think I am finally satisfied with the colors and all.
*hugs Josi* Thanks again for the header.
I even was shopping to not look through the paper. I got pants and two shirts for 15€, it is nice that H&M sells last seasons stuff for 2€ and 5€.

I have a hard time concentrating on one thing, which means I am not able to read through my paper and change the confusing parts. I have a headache and I am so bored by my own paper that I can't really look at it. Maybe I should stop now and let it be until tomorrow.

So back to procastinating. Hmm what to watch next?