It is always nice to realize what you can't do

[the_milky_way]

And once again I proved that I can't write papers in German Literature. No matter what I do, I always have to either re-write them or get told that I should try something else. This time though I would have had a chance to re-write if I had known that the paper is back at uni ready to be picked up. But no, I didn't know that and neither did the prof tell me. So I went to see if it was already there and it was, with a note from the prof that she can only give me the credits if I re-write the paper until "the end of the year". So obviously that end-of-the-year date is over by now and I never even got to see that note in time. Thanks a lot.
I so don't want to work on that again, it's been months since I read the book. Means that I so have to pass the two courses I am doing now and have to take another one next semester.
Since I am still at uni anyway I might as well take a course where there is a chance that I will like it.
But God, I thought I would be finished soon and I don't want to think aboutwhat happens if I fail the two papers I am about to write now.
I am so studying the wrong thing. I really should have gone for Biology instead.

I never have these problems in English, neither in Literature nor in Cultural Studies. I never had to re-write a paper (okay once to have a higher mark, but that was done voluntarily) or take a test again just because I failed it (which will probably chance th9is Friday as well, but I don't need that course). It happesn every time in German Lit though. *headdesk* I am obviously too dumb to write anything remotely close to being accepted by profs (if they actually keep to their own guide lines, which they never do).

Not that tis is making my future angst or whatever it is I am thinking about right now go away. I am just wondering when I'll be finished with university.

/end of rant

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I am trying not to feel like a total loser right now. I need distraction and I have the certain feeling the indulging myself in Suoernatural and/or Dark Angel will not help me feeling better, it just makes me want to watch more and supports my obsession. I doubt that this is the right way.
I should proably try and finish my English papers. Find topics for the two German ones. Or just go to bed and hide.

The positive thing today, presentationm went well and it was fun even.

Comments

[sandrine]

I am just wondering when I'll be finished with university.

Tell me about it! *sighs* I'm hating university and its burocracy with a vengeance right now.

*huggles*

[the_milky_way]

Ist nicht so sehr die Uni gerade, die mich ärgert als meine eigene Unfähigkeit.

Aber ich versteh Dich auch ganz gut :)

*zurückknuddel*