thanks for.... reducing me to an emotional mess

My grandma is a little better. Not okay but better. I hope she keeps up like that. I am still worried though.
Thank you for all the comments and nice words.
I appreciate it.

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I have been telling myself not to get involved too much again. It has been years and the last time it became so bad that I couldn't really watch races anymore without feeling sick.
That has been years ago but this season seems to be like that again. It wasn't in the beginning but right now I just want to punch people (really punch them and get all violent) and then crawl back into bed and hide.
I shouldn't let it happen again. I know it's not good. And maybe I am still a little drunk from last night and I know I am not really awake but I seriously feel like crying even though there is no real reason.

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I wanted to write down some of my notes from last night about the Eurovision Song Contest. I just can't be bothered to do it. It was a cool night and I had a lot of fun (and maybe a bit too much to drink even though I didn't feel all that drunk in the end. My head today suggests otherwise).
Anyway, I think our little group wasn't that far away from the general opinion since Russia won on our votes as well as on the real thing. Yeah, I think they deserved it most out of the top four or five.
I actually liked Turkey and Denmark as well. Finland, too. And even France, even if it was kind of scary but fun to watch.
I don't kow if I'll write more about it, right now I want to go back to bed watch some DA or anythign else I have on DVD just to not think too much about the things I have seen today. Maybe I shouldn't watch it anymore.
I don't even know where this emotional reaction is coming from.